followed my friends as far as the walk would take
down to the river and back round to the lake
behind the college / but schools not in session
hand rolled smokes no one sees us swim

rode my bike down here when i got the call
cause he’d overdosed just after texting us all
i love you, make music forever
knew i’d see him again cause he woke up sweating

in the ambulance, or the hospital
pumped his stomach was out of school that fall
walked to the lake with his girlfriend
told me she wished she’d beat him to it

i felt so small

walked down here for the party
following your friends and they’d set up already
made it four beers in when the cops came
we went back to your dorm when everybody ran

rolled in your bed awake till early morning
but i never told you all these stories
gave you fragments but kept the best for myself
hard to feel homesick till everyone’s laid to rest

got the message from an old friend today
don’t tell you / don’t talk to you anyway
who cares if someone else is gone
close myself in keep on moving on

like the tape’s stuck on repeat
new pictures same old screen
like the way it’s always been
i feel the valley closing in
and i’m sewn into the hem
and i’m losing u again
like i’m chasing how i felt
before i felt like someone else

i keep thinking i’ll see old roommates at a red light
same honda’s same bumper stickers same license plates
make eye contact then look away real quick
drive the same streets I always did
meet the same people always thinking
one day i’ll be more like them
someday i’ll get better then